I guess you could say I’m going through a hard time.
It’s summer! Aren’t things supposed to be easy this time of year? I’m anything but relaxed. In fact, all day I’ve been stressed – uptight. I can’t seem to get my problem out of my head.
Yes, there’s an issue alright. I made a mistake at my job, and I feel like I’ve let my employer down. I’ve failed. And do you know what the worst part is? I haven’t told him yet. That’s why I’m stressed. That’s why I’m constantly worried, anxious, and hopeless.
Wait a minute. That last word doesn’t sit well with me. I’m not supposed to be hopeless… I’m a Christian. “Hopeless” isn’t in my vocabulary! Something is NOT right here.
I DO have a hope. I do have a hope.
Maybe I need to step back for a second.
But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
2 Corinthians 12:9
Throughout this whole ordeal, God has humbled me a lot. I tried to fix it my own way, but every time I came up empty. I’m at the point now where I’m ready to admit my failure. I’m ready to kneel down and say, “God, I have failed, and no matter how hard I try, I can’t fix it.”
Maybe I need to step back and trust that God will use my weakness to make His strength known. Maybe I need to have faith that God will bring Himself glory through this situation.
I can almost feel it. I have faith that God’s going to do something amazing with this wreck, and I can’t wait to see it.
If God does decide to come in and save the day, I want there to be no possible way that I can take credit for His victory. If this problem is going to be fixed, I want it to be to God’s glory alone. I want His power to be made perfect in my weakness. I want that.
I’m going to take my hands off, step back, and watch God do His thing.
It’s all yours, God. If you choose to come in and save the day, it will be to your glory. If not, I will still praise you. My hope and prayer is that your name will be lifted up in my heart, and the hearts of others.
Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.
If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask God, who gives generously to all without reproach, and it will be given him. But let him ask in faith, with no doubting, for the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea that is driven and tossed by the wind.
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