Running Towards the Light

Recently I really felt distant from God. I knew something wasn’t quite right, but I couldn’t put my finger on it. I was just going through the motions. That’s why stepping away from the everyday life was perfect for me. I went on a retreat. The retreat’s focus was Romans 12: running the race well, with the destination in mind.

What really convicted me is Romans 12:1.

“Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us”

Romans 12:1

It’s been my dream to live with abandon – to live totally, exclusively, sold out to God. During the retreat I realized that I haven’t been living that way. Not at all. In fact, my passions, hobbies, and even some of my goals were distracting me from the ultimate goal. These were my burdens – my weights. My fixation with the things of this world were dragging me down, making me lose sight of the finish line.

This may sound radical, but I want to do more than just be sinless. I want my whole life to be written for God. Many times, the things that drag us down from running the race things aren’t sin – they’re not conscious rebellion against God. But I want to do more than just not rebel. I want to live for the creator, and Him alone.

If you’re an avid sports fan, that’s not inherently wrong. If you enjoy movies, that’s not wrong. If you love politics, I don’t see anything wrong with that. However, things like these have the potential to pull us in all directions. In this race were running, there’s only one destination. If you try reaching two separate destinations, it will tear you apart.

I guess the mentality I have now is this: if something in my life doesn’t revolve like a satellite around God, it may as well spin off into the universe. I don’t need it anymore. It’s just going to drag me down. On the flip side, if my passions, hobbies, and goals revolve around God,  I truly believe I will be able to run with endurance this life-long race.

Something amazing I was reminded of on the retreat is that there is a finish line. We have hope, because we know that we WILL win this race – not because we ran it well, but because we ran with HIM.


Don’t run with the world – run with Him!




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